had a dream about brandon last night. it was weird cuz it was like we were back together- but then again we never really were "together".....it was one of those dreams about people from ur past, like this chick id known since i was 6 but who left when i was like 11........she was there and she needed some fake chocolate cuz she was allergic to real chocolate. my friends brother game me clothes to wear for some audition which is never really a smart thing to do in the first place. oh well. it was just a dream.

sometime last night between the fightin with my ex, doin my homework, and talkin to my long lost brandon i realized that as pathetic as i am-- ive managed to become even more pathetic and succum to life's one real purpose for me....words. i mean for heaven's sake i have 4 bloggers! everything i have began to think now has even managed to turn into some fancy words slammed together tryin to a form a thought which prolly isnt real in the first place. ill finish this later. i gotta go to school now.......