Well, I'm back but not for long- not that anyone cares. I just wanted to tell you that I believe I stirred up a hornet's nest with an ex of mine....and no not Mark or Daniel. Another one.......well see here's how I did it. I never get to see him and Kyle was going to visit (since I'm sorta not allowed to go see him cuz of his new g/f) so I wrote him a letter....kinda "Happy Birthday, know what I want to get you for your bday but I can't find it anywhere, if you'd stop moving maybe I'll give it to you one day" sorta letter. I was very careful as to how I wrote it too because I knew the new g/f would read it-- thank God I planned for that because not only did she read it, everyone else did too which is fine cuz I thought ahead. Anyways there was this one little teeny-tiny part where I wrote this word that kinda pissed the new g/f off......it's mainly just a big inside joke between me and him though. Oh and I kinda brought up the past for half a sec, although that was far from my intentions.........I'd explain that to you except I know you wouldn't understand. I'll try to explain the one word thing though: the word is Australia. Those of you who know me might understand now why the Stephanie got so angry at me.........she thought I was Rachel because I said "Australia- 2 years- summer '05" because my ex and I always talked about goin to Australia after I graduated. However the "2 years" part is what threw the Stephanie off (my ex's girlfriend/fiance) because my friend Rachel made a deal I guess is what you'd call it, with Shane while I was dating him (little did I know) that when she turned 18 (2 years) they would...............haha. It's funny now because Rachel was the IDIOT who went to visit Shane with the Stephanie and had the nerve to scream "2 years Shane! 2 years!!" yeah she's not welcome anywhere near Shane anymore cuz of the Stephanie's problem with her. This is partially where the hornet's next comes in......cuz up til now I've only provoked a bit. Hornet's nest: I asked him a true/false question and told him to tell Kyle the answer so that I would know. The question: I was told that you always cared more about me than you did about Rachel, even though you and her were best friends. True/False? NATURALLY when the Stephanie read that she about freaked.......not only that, Shane said in front of her "True". Needless to say I got warm-fuzzies when I found out but it is only for us to know the meaning of that (more inside stuff). I don't think I'll be allowed to see Shane for awhile........(grin) but it's worth it.....

Well, I think Daniel is about to owe me $5....don't ask why. I'm going to my dad's today for the joyious 4th of July.....it won't be so joyious I fear but oh well. Talking to Mark, my ex, right now.....he asked me out again yesterday. What am I supposed to say to that? "No you're such an a**hole I don't wanna go back out with you! How dense can you be to even ask that!?" Uh no don't think so. I just told him not to ask.....Brandon found out my dirty little secret last night....forced me to tell him. Now he's angry and I know it's just brewing inside of him- which is why when he called me back at midnight....7 times.....I simply ignored it. I don't want to be yelled at by him or anyone else. I know if Daniel or Mark or well...not Brandon anymore....if they find out, my life is gonna suck. I'm gonna catch it from all of them- the third degree that is. It's like sometimes I fear for my own safety around them which is ridiculous I know because none of them would lay a hand on me in anger but sometimes....idk. It's like Brandon went from wannabe b/f to overprotective brother (which is sick and twisted trust me), Mark is still the ex from Hell who will always want me back but who wants to torture me for the crimes he has "forgiven" me for, and Daniel is all and everything. He's the best friend who went to b/f but f*ked up and then became a friend who couldn't stand to be a friend so we stopped being friends on his account.......but now with this clean slate I just found out he still has the "sparks" as I like to call them, but I need only a best friend. He is jealous and overprotective and angry and loving and....well as I said: all and everything. I have to go now, I'll write later.......