Well, I think Daniel is about to owe me $5....don't ask why. I'm going to my dad's today for the joyious 4th of July.....it won't be so joyious I fear but oh well. Talking to Mark, my ex, right now.....he asked me out again yesterday. What am I supposed to say to that? "No you're such an a**hole I don't wanna go back out with you! How dense can you be to even ask that!?" Uh no don't think so. I just told him not to ask.....Brandon found out my dirty little secret last night....forced me to tell him. Now he's angry and I know it's just brewing inside of him- which is why when he called me back at midnight....7 times.....I simply ignored it. I don't want to be yelled at by him or anyone else. I know if Daniel or Mark or well...not Brandon anymore....if they find out, my life is gonna suck. I'm gonna catch it from all of them- the third degree that is. It's like sometimes I fear for my own safety around them which is ridiculous I know because none of them would lay a hand on me in anger but sometimes....idk. It's like Brandon went from wannabe b/f to overprotective brother (which is sick and twisted trust me), Mark is still the ex from Hell who will always want me back but who wants to torture me for the crimes he has "forgiven" me for, and Daniel is all and everything. He's the best friend who went to b/f but f*ked up and then became a friend who couldn't stand to be a friend so we stopped being friends on his account.......but now with this clean slate I just found out he still has the "sparks" as I like to call them, but I need only a best friend. He is jealous and overprotective and angry and loving and....well as I said: all and everything. I have to go now, I'll write later.......