well as i sit here, i wonder why i even resort to drinking. i mean sure ive had a shitty week, but im not the only one. ive got friends that jump at the chance to come over when i mention the word "alcohol" or "drunk". funny now that i think about it because actually, i dont really consider myself a drinking type of person. actually i wanna stay as far away from what they call an "alcoholic" as is possible because i dont wanna turn out like my family. word to the wise: screwdrivers aren't all they're cracked up to be. my friend asked me if i was a depressed drunk and i said no, laughed it off, changed the station.....but ya know now that i think about it- its entirely a possibility. i mean my week is hell and my so called "best friend" daniel is about to kill me. i mean sometimes i just feel like wringin his neck and i honestly dont know how in the world im gonna handle workin with him on tech crew. hes supposed to my crew which i guess is a good thing because ill at least have control over every situation but i know how thatll work out. i mean itll be me going "daniel just shut up and do it!" and marilea telling us both to shut up while lizz goes off into a whole different world. ANYWAYS on a better subject, i guess ill go to the fact that this weekend might possibly turn out to be blissful. im supposed to go see sweet home alabama with ladona which im dying to see and we get to go to the mall to search for rachels birthday which also happens to be the fair weekend AND something else....i forgot. anyways did u know that girls blink twice as much as guys? figures huh? i mean we bat our eyes at guys as some sort of twisted mating ritual i guess. haha man i just totally got off subject....oh dude wait, i didnt even HAVE a subject established yet! thats just like me! GOD i miss brandon like no other! i hope that my boyfriend hasnt broken up with me cuz i havent talked to him in over 2 weeks and before that i only talked to him like twice for about 5 minutes if that. thats just sad. whats even sadder is that im totally freakin fallin for this guy from like last year. we kinda split really suddenly, not that we were ever really together, but we were CLOSE oh so close and dude its like all the sudden hes talkin to me again outta nowhere. i dunno. i just think that right now i need another drink.............