ok now where was i? oh yeah...the little ball of crap that i just chunked into the river. well, inside this ball of crap there's jeremy, rachel, erica, ladona, let's see who else.......i cant think but all these people and the CRAP that has been goin on with them just make me all grr-ified. last night lizz, daniel, alex (yeah i know....alex is a new guy, friend of daniels from back in the day), and i all went to downtown music and watched lizzs online friend, clark, play with his band. it was an interesting experience if nothing else. i mean if u picture all the guys from your high school that were gothish, but dorky and alcoholic/drug abusers-- now age them bout 20-25 years, add black clothes, greasy hair, and a beer and u got the concert. i think i saw 2 or 3 other girls other than lizz and i....and those females looked like if u had the right gift, they'd be one of those 'call for a good time' hippy types. i think i woulda had a lot more fun had i not been terrified, choking from the smoke, and getting a migraine. im very glad that the boys were with us though cuz i know i never woulda done it without them. CRAP moms home, i gotta go......yet again, ill finish this later

well, everyone else has updated so i guess its my turn again. if u wanna hear about mine and lizz's trips to eureka springs and memphis, go to her blog at www.lizz_b.blogspot.com. i dont really have a whole lot to say about our trips because my memory, along with the funny details, has faded over time. overall, 2 good trips. lots of fun and all that jazz. by the way, daniel is back from california and if you wanna hear about HIS trip go to his blog at www.thefluffy.blogspot.com.....great details. basically, my spring break has been kinda monotone. sure its had its moments of excitement, happiness, sadness, anger, etc......but overall pretty much the same stuff. i just wish that i could take all the CRAP thats on my mind, ball it up into this ugly, lumpy, itsy-bitsy ball and chunk it into the river. ehh daniel just called me and he's a little angry but wont share so im gonna go.............ill finish later

Well let's see, where to begin where to begin.....okay I guess it's best to just get it all out in the open. Daniel left Saturday for Sacramento and I have no idea why but it just makes me so depressed. I mean I love him and I miss him terribly but I shouldn't be acting like this...he IS coming back. He's called me everyday, more than once, and that helps a lot....but at the same time I just don't think I was cut out for this kind of emotional roller coaster. Every night I think about him being gone and how much I wish he was here and when I see airplanes it tears me apart. That's not all though. Today in history we got on the subject of time zones and it made me think of him. Ya know what they say about paybacks.......it's so true. Let's see what else is on my mind. Obviously the "new guy" in my life, Jeremy (21), he's creating issues. I don't think I quite understand what's goin on there but all his crap on top of the Daniel thing just adds up. BEWARE I AM EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE should be posted on my forehead. Also, I've fallen behind on my stalking. Rarely do I even see my stalkees anymore and that saddens me. I'm all prom-ified with stress and then my grades and my brother moved out but STILL HASNT TOLD ME YET and hes been gone for nearly 2 weeks now........"my cell phone doesnt let me receive messages" BULL CRAP. This song fits perfectly "watch the wind blow by" by Tim McGraw......here be the lyrics and with this, I sign off.....
Creek goes rippling by
I've been barefooting all day with my baby
Brown leaves have started falling
Leading the way

I like it best just like this
Doing nothing all the way
So let's lay down in the tall grass
Dreaming away

And all I wanna do is let it be and be with you
And watch the wind blow by
And all I wanna see is you and me go on forever
Like the clear blue sky
Slowly, there's only
You and I
And all I want to do is watch the wind blow by

Girl, you know you told me not so long ago
To let it come, then let it pass
And all your troubles and your sorrows
They won't last

So let me kiss you now, little darling
Beneath this autumn moon
Cold wind, another season
Will be here soon

And all I wanna do is let it be and be with you
And watch the wind blow by
And all I wanna see is you and me go on forever
Like the clear blue sky
Slowly, there's only
You and I
And all I want to do is watch the wind blow by
All I wanna do is watch the wind blow by
All I wanna do is watch the wind blow by