Recently I've loved and lost

Lately, lots of things have happened. To begin, I turned 18 on Tuesday, November 9. I have to say that despite the hesitation I showed, it was one of my best birthdays ever. That's all due to my friends though. I mean, how many days a year can you get posters put on your locker, balloons and candy delivered to your classroom, glitter bombed, and still stay after school for a ridiculous amount of time? The day part was good, but the rehearsals afterwards were the best because not only did I get to actually overcome my fear of heights and walk on the roof of the school, I also got to play a part in scaring the dickens out of Mr. Dupins with a hellacious practical joke. Good times, good times. So, other than the birthday thing, a lot has happened since I last updated. The biggest thing would have to be the conversation with Daniel that lasted a few days. Now that I look back on it, I only hope that it made somewhat of a difference. However, I've learned from past experiences that it's probably not going to change anything and even if it does change something, it will never be the same. I'm not sure what else I could have said to him to make it easier for him to understand. The weird thing is that considering that conversation was the major occurrence of the past month, no one knew about it but us. Now they will. I think I should start a blog just for Daniel so that whenever I have something to say to him or he has something to say to me, we can talk and no one will interfere. I think that was and still is one of our major problems that has never been fixed. Too many people interfere with our relationship, causing us to create more obstacles to overcome. It's really quite disheartening. On a lighter note, I spoke with Lee for the first time in ohh......8 months or so. I know that no one else really cares, but I enjoyed it. Lizz lived with me this past week and that was fun. We stayed up late and talked and I dyed her hair AGAIN and I watched Psycho for the first time which, by the way, is the only word possible to describe that movie. I'm going to chop off my hair next week because I figure why not try something new. Hell, if my brother can be a hippie, I can have shorter hair. My mom had her 50th birthday party on the sixth and what a party it was! We decorated for hours before- taping balloons and streamers everywhere and playing with the helium tank while everyone else set up the FOUR BARS strategically placed throughout my house. Yes, it's true. No one went inside or outside without being confronted by a bartender. My stepdad turned romantic and bought my mom a freakin huge diamond ring. The weather has been getting extreme going from 80 degrees one day to 40 degrees the next. Chad's been busy as all get-out, running from rehearsal to rehearsal, office to the counselor's office, school to home. Marilea and I have been talking again which is good. I've missed it a lot. Seems like I'm slowly crawling out of the "God's just pointing his finger and laughing at me" ditch I've been in. We wrote a great Upstage script and I only hope we'll be able to pull it off. I think that's about it, at least for now. Daniel, I love you and everyone else- I'll talk to ya whenever....