Friday, January 14, 2005

Do I Moonlight as the Energizer Bunny?

So I keep having these reoccuring dreams about people that I've been around for years. Some are ex's, but most are friends that have come and gone. There is one though, that drives me insane because I keep having it over and over again....the same thing. I'm running down the back hall at school as fast as I can, I burst through the cafeteria doors outside, and I'm panicking because I can't find who I'm looking for. I just keep searching the parking lot and there are hundreds of students that I recognize wandering around, obscuring my vision. I just can't find whoever it is I'm looking for. Finally, at the far end (by where I park) I see Clint standing around and I start running towards him. I run and run and after what seems like a ridiculous amount of time he's about 10 feet away and then it happens- I find who I've been looking for. He's standing about 5 feet in front of Clint. Instead of going to Clint, I run at him and I embrace him in this hug that...well, it was like I hadn't seen him in years. As I'm hugging him, Clint comes back into view and he doesn't necessarily look angry or anything, it's like he feels left out or maybe like he doesn't belong- like he shouldn't be seeing me hugging Daniel. That's right, it's Daniel...the whole time I'm chaotic and running around searching, I was looking for Daniel. My dream ends really abruptly when I ask Daniel under my breath gasping for air (because I was running so much), "Daniel, where have you been?" Yeah I've pretty much had that dream every night now for about 2 weeks. Sometimes I see different people in the parking lot and sometimes it isn't Clint standing there. It's been a variety of people: Daniel's brother, Kyle, my brother's friend Jerry, my dad, Chad, and once it was Lizz and Audra. The part that really gets under my skin is that I always wake up before I get to here the answer to my question. It's like I run, I search, I recognize, I find, I hug and ask and then I wake up....very annoying. I had another dream 2 nights ago where I was at a play rehearsal for Last Will and Testament (the cursed play). The set is halfway constructed and there are a few actors...Jordan and Carson I think....talking to Dupins at stage right. The house lights are off and there is only light on the actors and on a stairway part of the set. I'm standing in the front row of the House on stage left and I can see Kaitlyn Tuttle coaching Rodney on his lines backstage by the boy's dressing room. There is no one at the booth and no one on the catwalk....it's like I'm invisible. There's a script at the edge of the stage in front of me and as I reach for it everything suddenly goes into a scene from a horror film. The very second I touch the script every single person on stage comes into view glaring at me like they want to kill me. I feel a bit intimidated naturally, but I figure they must be looking somewhere else since I'm invisible...but they aren't. As I pick up the folder the script is in and start to walk away, I can hear foosteps running off the stage, people jumping off the skirt and into the House, and they are getting louder...closer...and I begin to panic. My heart starts racing and I'm breathing faster....my hands are shaking so bad I can barely hold the script, and I just get this feeling like "Ok, this is it. This is how I'm going to die..." so I just close my eyes and stand still as the footsteps reach within inches of me. Then, a hand on my shoulder jerks me around to face the stage and I open my eyes....no one is there. All the lights are on, music is blaring All By Myself by Celine Dion. I'm standing dead center of the House and I'm really confused, but then I hear footsteps in the distance from sidestage and Dupins comes into view, blocking the light in his eyes with his hands, looking out to the House at me. He says, "Hey Battle Axe, you gonna stay here all night or am I gonna have to get Chad in here to help you clean up?" The End. Weird dreams, definitely. It has to be a good sign though that in both of these dreams I'm not running from anything. One I'm running to Daniel, and the other I just panic and freeze up. Other than all that, there's not much worth noting. My friendship with dear Mr. Craig has renewed over the past month or 2 which is always nice, although now we are closer than before....and not in a negative way, just that we talk more to each other I guess. I made the so-called "impossible A" in AP Euro! That's a MIRACLE! Uhh...Daniel got a new girlfriend but of course everyone already knows that. (This is the point where I sit and stare at the blinking cursor because I don't ahve anything else to say......so I'm just gonna end it without an end...)

2 Comments:

At 4:12 PM, Blogger lizz said...

you forgot to comment on how i was trying to tell you i smoked pot in as nice as way as possible because i felt it was right.i would like some kind of official statement(minus "i figured") btw me and my mom finally had that talk about her not being sane...i dont know if ill blog about it or not...

 
At 8:15 PM, Blogger Chad said...

Well steph, i don't know what to say about all these dreams you've been having. But most dreams occur when you get a lot of sleep, so if you want them to stop, try going to sleep a little later. Its crazy how the mind works, ya know? If I had answers, believe me I wouldn't hold back, but your psyche is just too out of control. Oh, well, have a good day!

 

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