Here I am once again. I feel so exhausted by my emotions. One minute I'm happy, the next I'm angry, and then all of the sudden outta nowhere I just want to cry and be left alone. I doubt I'm manic depressive but this sure is not right. I wanna break up with my b/f because (to quote the song) "I hate everything about you-why do I love you? You hate everything about me-why do you love me?" Only God knows I suppose but this is ridiculous. I want to, I feel I need to, but second thoughts and then logic and reasoning oh and then the whole his family liking me for once.......so much goes into it. I yell at my friends when I don't mean to and then they think I hate them. I laugh at the most INCORRECT moments and my advice sucks. I went to Popeye's tonight after a movie that I went to with my b/f and as I sat in the drive-in waiting to get to the window, I suddenly found myself thinking that for the last month I've basically lived off of fast food--how sad is that--then I wanted to cry. Crying over fast food? Yeah something is imbalanced. I even told my b/f when I left the movie that I didn't wanna go with him to Sonic b/c I wasn't hungry........It took me an hour to drive home from a place that's 15 minutes away and get fast food...I was the second car in line....where all that time went I have no idea. God what's wrong with me? Is it the back-to-school jitters? Do I need to go back to my therapist? Do I need medication? Or am I just another ordinary teenager? Can't talk to my friends about this because they won't be able to help......now I'm not even hungry.......there's one good thing I have to say: Go see S.W.A.T., it's a good movie. I would know, I've seen them all....