Again it rains. I feel like it suits my mood. Both good and bad. Both wet (not like that-as in crying) and dry. Drowsy but very much awake. Cloudy but bright at the same time. No, I haven't broken up with the b/f yet....I really can't find an excuse cuz everytime I try to, I stop. Ehh...let it work itself out. I've had a very interesting few days- what with my bro's best friend gettin drunk and stealing my moms '98 corvette, hitting a deer, and then everyone shunning him cept for car payments and me. That's right, I shall not shun. I think he needs someone right now, even if it has to remain in the computer. I feel like he appreciates having someone to talk to, even if it is his best friends baby sis ya know? I'm trying to do right by him. Tellin him to stop drinkin and stop doin drugs and get off xanax bars for Christ's sakes. I think that helping people, helps myself...if that makes sense. I wanna write a song...I can't play any instruments or sing worth a flip or even read music or right it for that matter....but lyrics I think I could do. I wanna write a book...but I can never have the motivation to sit down and finish. Plus, everytime I start to write a book I can get about 20 pages or so before I realize that I'm not writing fiction, I'm writing my life-and no one wants to read that. I think I've started writing about 15 books......all with unique titles from the unique part of my life they started out to be about. If I had a PCS notebook......I might have a drive to sit down. Ya know, like I don't feel like writing so I don't come and get on the comp cuz I know I'd rather chat with friends, but instead I don't even leave my room. There isn't chatting on my notebook, I just open it and type. Sounds nice doesn't it? It ain't gonna happen. I hate the government, they're out to get people who download music off the internet (guilty).......off to delete songs lol